I have a username that I use on therian-centric forums, in order to keep my therianthropy posts online separate from my legal name as well as my gaming nick. But it has no deeper meaning. Susitar is literally the Finnish word for wolf (susi) + a feminine suffix. So in English, it would be something like "wolfess". Just a placeholder to protect my real identity.

When I was 14 and started to awaken, before I found the therian community and didn't really know what was going on, I did create a "wolf name". I loved the novel Watership Down, so inspired by the rabbit names there, I gave myself a "wolf name": Sea Breeze. I had also seen some furry art (without knowing that it was an entire subculture), so I drew some art of this "Sea Breeze", a fox + wolf hybrid with water magic. So in a way, I made a fursona when I was 14?
But it sounded more like a pirate name, to be honest, and I never did use it for anything in the long term. I also realised I was a wolf, and not a fox at all (even if they are my favourite animal) and abandonded all ideas about a "magical hybrid with water powers".

Susitar was something I came up with much later, I think I started to use it on Tumblr first (2010). I realised that Tumblr was much more public and open than say, Werelist. On Werelist I had used my normal gaming handle at first. But my irl friends knew about that username - and I didn't want them to know about my tumblr account. Later, I went back to change my username on Werelist to Susitar as well.

Like many others in this thread, I don't think most wild animals have names in the ways that humans do. Maybe dolphins or something have names, but wolves don't really need that.

Tl;dr: I have a username on therian sites. It's not a "spiritual name" or "therian name", it's just an online handle.

Omg Bag, congrats <3
I never thought I'd ever see this happen

Therians having names for their theriotypes really confuse me, your theriotype is supposed to be YOU. I understand if you were a pet in a past life, or maybe you have an identity disorder where you sometimes don't feel like yourself, but past that I really do not get it at all.

Wow..I did not know of any of this but from what I have read, DustWolf was getting tired so I am glad he can rest but I also hope he still comes here once in awhile.
Congratulations to Bagera too

First off Rain thanks for sharing, no introspection is stupid or false! It's interesting and important to listen to everyone's view to learn from their unique ideas and experiences.

It appears we have similar experiences with phantom shifts; my shifts are very environmentally and emotionally driven. I haven't snarled before to my memory, but I can get jaw phantoms when I'm grouchy or frustrated. I experience my ears and tail swaying when I'm happy and my ears perk up when I'm startled. I can keep those sensations around thinking about them, but they feel fake and exaggerated. I also get some phantoms from environmental factors like cold wind can induce face fur. I react to physical touches like petting or getting picked up. I think these are related as they're involuntary and I figure skip thought in a similar way.

Chapter 2 is very interesting and opens a bit of a can of worms. If phantoms are something neurological, it implies that everyone who experiences phantom shifts:
1. Had a past life to obtain those experiences
2. Has a soul that existed in both bodies
3. Has instincts retained in their soul, not minds
4. Can draw from learnings of the soul
I have not claimed any of these but they appear reasonable so I will explore those ideas more from now on.

Bias of wanting to be your theriotype is problematic, people jump to conclusions that are desirable rather than true. I've become happy as a hybrid of human and canid traits which helps, but bias still exists. I get concerned therianthropy is made up to make you feel special. But I've been critical and don't believe that is the case.

(Ouch, phantom appendicitis sounds rough XD)

Our experiences have a correlation between emotions and sensory input to shifts. I understand connecting those parts of the brain to shifts. I'm not convinced they are related in that way. My shifts feel like natural responses to environmental factors rather than feeling a zap when my face is touched. I believe there's calculations in the brain to connect these things, but more akin to smiling when you are happy.

It makes sense that parts of the brain that controlled the tail died as we evolved. But I think any tail sensation would have died, and the brain would reuse that space for something else.

The diagnostics have advanced a bit over time; Functional MRI (fMRI) has made studying neuronal activation mapping non-invasive (it's still a very low resolution image, but you can discern which regions are active and, I believe, how active they are compared to others.).

This was copypasted from my reply to another thread on this topic:
"You might find this paper discussing the Body Schema interesting: https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC10605253/ It's rather long, but it does go into phantom limbs.

From what I remember it noted that the brain didn't necessarily reorganize after the loss of a limb, and continued to "expect" signals from it. I think this may have implications for those of us with past lives if what is carried into the present results in the formation of those circuits during childhood development.

Also, this paper discusses the possible mechanisms behind phantom pain: https://www.frontiersin.org/journals/pain-research/articles/10.3389/fpain.2025.1419762/full "

As for why a psychological therian would experience these things...I'm guessing it's mirroring and internalization of what's being mirrored, so that a modified body schema results. It's difficult to really draw many conclusions without being able to follow therians over the course of their lives to see whether the animal-like body map(and associated phantom sensations) are present since birth or acquired later, and whether it changes or extinguishes over time.

This was a really interesting read Rain, I'm looking forward to more of it! I'll share some of my thoughts thus far, but keep in mind I've not read this book and I'm the opposite of an expert. English is not my first language, so excuse me if some of my writing is sloppy.

The example with the smile made sense to me. The more you consciously think about shifting, the harder it is to do so or feel your limbs. It adds up with how in order to get out of a shift, you just have to remind your conscience of your surroundings. The subconscious is where all of this happens, and if it gets "overshadowed" by us forcing ourselves to act a certain way, it leads to a different result. So naturally, it's also connected to emotion, as each feeling leads to instinctual subconscious actions that were developed throughout evolution, such as the goosebumps we get that are a leftover of the mammalian ancestors who needed their fur to fluff up or be more insulated. We can't force those to happen either, unless we find a way to trick our subconscious into feeling the required things needed to trigger them, such as by being in a certain environment/situation. Same thing can be done in regards to shifts in some ways.
Why phantom limbs can exist in the first place without having biologically existed is anyone's best guess I feel like. As the book explained, the brains of amputees are wired to "expect" more than what they have now, because needing to rewire it is so rare that a lot of the brains kinda just keep it in one way or another, and it could be similar in regard to, say, a phantom tail: The brain already works differently in some way in comparison to the "normal" human brain you'd expect, so it was also wired to expect more than the human body that sends signals back directly from its limbs. Therefore, it also answers why it doesn't fade like "pretend play" - because it works the same as the phantom limbs described in the book, which are also the opposite of "pretend play". It can fade, but oftentimes, as is laid out here, it doesn't. It's a real, learned brain pattern and can stay over time if you don't consciously block it out and therefore also works just as instinctually as all the other limbs you control automatically.
With all of them, your subconscious knows what to do to adapt them to your current situation. So what all of this shows is that, just like the author agreed, it has to do with your brain controlling what it is wired to control. It's just there, and the brain does what it is wired to do, and it's hard for that to change. If it was about your brain wishing that something was there, the phenomenon wouldn't be part of the same area that controls what the rest of your body should instinctively do. It's not thinking "I wish it was there," it's "I need to control my limbs. This pre-installed wiring shows me the limbs I have." There's no thought process checking: Is this or that limb really there? Because every limb that can be controlled there has a reason to be there. No matter if it's feeling in a missing arm, appendix or anything else. Whatever it is for e.g. a phantom tail, as I said, is pretty much just speculation. All we know is (at least us two) that shifts just kinda were there eventually, and later we found therianthropy which we could use to give it a label. I'm honestly not really sure about the whole limb areas in the brain affecting the phantom limbs thing because that's not something I've ever experienced through a simple touch of one specific part. It seems to be a way wider phenomenon, but again, when you get to this stage, it becomes way too much speculation for me to say anything concrete about what it may be. Beyond the aforementioned emotion thing where they can react when the signals for the emotion are being sent. I guess in some way, the brains do also carry leftover brain maps, but I'm not sure in what exact way. Is this lined out more clearly somewhere in the book? Or is it just as you said: "There are, or could be, several maps"?

I feel like the things explained in the book line up really well and could help us explain and deal with certain stuff better, so I'd love to read what you write about the next chapters as you continue reading the book!

this is really intresting Rain

i realise now this is much more sciency than my normal posts, and indeed my normal speech, so there may be words and such used wrong or it may read off! my bad!

**EDIT2: have made more phone user friendly, improved spelling and grammar!**

**EDIT: i have decided to split this up into several posts because i am so fascinated. this first post only explores the first 30 or so pages.i will make further posts in the future on more pages!! **


Hi there everyone! It’s Rain here! Recently I found an interesting book, with a lot of research on phantom limbs and the functions of the human brain and nervous systems, and thought i would share it here since it helped me interpret many of my own phantom limbs related to therianthropy and how phantom limbs could be (scientifically) possible. this is all, of course, my personal take and look at the science but hopefully it will be informative for u all! if you would like to read the book for yourselves, its 'Phantoms in the Brain' by Sandra Blakeslee and V.S. Ramachandran. i found it in my school library!

please bear in mind that, since this was published in the late 90's many of the practices or sciences may be out of date or disproved, but interesting nonetheless. The key parts i looked at for phantom limbs were pages 21-57 ^^. U can think of this like a.... detached essay of sorts. i take snippets from the text, or things i have learned, and evaluate them. where i can, i connect them to therianthropy, in particular psychological therians, though there is certainly some spiritual links in here! I’m not a scientist by any means and this is all very theoretical, (and raises more questions than it answers) as well as being VERY long winded. in fact, I’m writing as I’m reading , so with introspection some of my idea may be stupid or entirely false, this is just how i see things at first glance, u will notice how my ideas develop and change as the post progresses, because i have just read more to feedback on X3. perhaps though, learning if others experiences mirror mine would be useful? i talked abt this briefly in the discord as well, and id be happy to discuss it here or there further!! those that asked to be tagged: @Wolfie @Greenleaf8 @Z1ppy.0fflin3 @SproutTheAlterhuman @AgitatedSneaker

My first discovery comes from before the talk of phantom limbs at all, pages 13-14 which were talking about the differences between brain connections in a natural and performed/ forced smile. the authors explained that, whilst natural intuition and brain function circumvented the 'processing' parts of the brain to produce a natural smile, its instinctual with no thought, that a forced smile taken by someone like a photographer looks completely different because our brains recognise the speech and look of a camera, rather than the natural look of a face, causing us to react differently and use a different cortex of the brain. thus the smile looks unnatural, as it is not produced in the same area as a normal smile would be.

the author explained this in context of strokes. if a patient with a small stroke affecting one area of the basal ganglia (that smile area) sees a loved one, they may smile with only half their mouth (but genuinely) because the stroke damaged the parts controlling the other side. however, if you asked that same person to smile for a photo, they could smile with both sides of the mouth, unnaturally, proving that it comes from an entirely separate and therefore undamaged part of the brain.

my phantom limbs, i feel, react in a similarly instinctual way. you will hear many therians say that shifts are (most of the time) involuntary, and for me this is certainly true. i cannot consciously command them [shifts] at all- they just naturally appear, usually as an expression of emotion. For example: if someone asked me "can you feel a phantom tail right now?" the sensation dissipates because it no longer feels natural, instead forced and commanded. in this way, i likened my shifts like the genuine smile. my tail is spontaneous and natural, i do not have to think it for it to be there. If i am angered, i instinctively pull back my gums to snarl, and lash my tail. no one taught me these things, at least not in a human concept, but they are so instinctual i cannot reproduce them on command. a snarl of anger is not performative, it is natural. if you ask me to snarl for a camera? i cant, its like a forced script and it comes out all wrong... human like in a way, like my brain redirects itself to the 'correct programming' and can no longer express it.

maybe in this way, one could suggest that our shifts are a 'natural reprogramming' of the more primitive and shaped parts of the brain, that this is just our smile loop of sorts, that it developed as an unconscious response that cannot be artificially controlled.

but for all this, i kept wondering how phantom limbs were even possible in the first place. how does the brain even recognise something that cannot biologically have ever been there on our human bodies? sure past lives could explain a remembering of some functions, but what of those of us that dont have past lives? so i read on :3

chapter 2; 'knowing where to scratch' is literally allll about phantom limbs!
i got super excited at this fact, and probably overanalysed it all (my bad!). unfortunately though, because the stories and explanations I found are all about HUMAN experiences and lost limbs (not those that were not biologically there in the first place) a lot of this is supposition: to guess at the theory of phantom limbs in therians specifically.
its a whole other science, more about the programming, memory and wiring of the brain than neurology since we never had those limbs, but also partially neurological too since the sensations are performed in a similar manner; a mere memory cannot perfectly reconstruct or change and adapt a phantom limb to the angle one is standing at, or the heat of an argument. Thats developmental, there has to be a process there, and that’s what I’m trying to find out! I do not need my tail to balance, yet i instinctively sway it from side to side when on a stone wall to stop me from falling, as if ive always done so and its needed for survival.

the book explained that these patients experiencing phantom limbs were not crazy, and that the sensations could be so realistic they do not even realise they are missing the part removed. the limbs can even produce pain, and some stories describe experiences in the detached limb that could still be 'felt' in the patient who lost it. of course this dosent explain limbs that never existed, but perhaps it can help us understand how they work. why does my phantom tail move in such uncanny, natural motions even if it cannot do so? why does it respond, twitch, change, spike the fur, even if i have not consciously made it do so, and i have never had a tail in which to learn all these things? to quote "why would an arm persist in the patients mind long after it had been removed? why doesnt the mind simply accept the loss and 'reshape' the image? to be sure, this does happen in some patients, but it usually takes years or decades. why decades--why not just a week or a day?" end quote. and honestly, i could arise the same question. especially for older therians, why do we not just 'forget and reshape' ourselves and our identities once we leave the socially accepted 'play pretend' phase as pups. why does it linger? why can some of us remain shifting into adulthood, and why dont others?

Of course, im only 16, i cant really give an opinion here. so as a question for you guys... why do you think you still shift?.

The book went on to explain the early seeings of such phenomena, in the C16th and how people likened them to concrete evidence of the existence of the soul, that the minds thought of our body may no longer, represent what is really there. does that therefore explain our internally inhuman images? that these limbs are, in fact, the movements of the soul we simply cannot see, but our brain seeks to control?

the authors then cited the idea of this being just wishful thinking, of wanting back the limb they lost. and then declared that idea nonsense (which for me personally, was a huge confidence boost, because my brain went 'yeah! i dont wish for my tail back, it IS mine! i DO/did have one! i swear!' even if that cant be true cause i cannot have one :< ).

honestly to understand all of this fully, i recommend reading the book yourselves. im actually really enjoying it and the stories are fascinating! they remind me of many of my mothers own doctor stories X3 with added science, which perhaps explains my draw to them. i just cant explain it as well without magpieing the whole thing lol.

what i did find encouraging personally, was that they explored not only arms and legs, but even a story of a phantom appendicitis pain after the appendix was removed and the pain was gone, or someone with phantom parts of the face lost after an accident. this, to me atleast, shows that is is scientifically possible for phantom limbs to be other body parts, and would explain why worldwide therians experience this both similarly and differently, for different species even, even if they have never had contact with one another or known therianthropy. i have had phantom limbs since around 7 or 8, and learned about therianthropes at the age of 14. [size= medium] so it wouldnt make any sense if this was just mass delusion, since i didnt even know this was a shared thing until (relatively) recently. [/size]

now heres the really cool and sciencey bit! pages 25-39. :

this segment began by explaining a diagram, labeled as 2.1 in the book, which showed the proportionality and placement to which parts of the brain reacted to which bodyparts. How areas of the body more sensitive to touch (like the lips) were much more overrepresented as compared to areas with less feeling like the torso. more interestingly though, that these areas did not line up. the hand, 5 or so time larger than the body, was next to (not below) the neck. If we used this diagram could we find if there is a correlation, or shared experience of us as therians to reconstruct this idea and programme in a limb that never existed. OR is it instead a correlation between our emotive response, and these stimulated areas that makes us move not only our human selves, but also experience phantom stimulation that we feel should also be there. i am aware however i will likely never know the answer to this, as such human experiments are no longer performed, but even so its interesting to me.

The idea of brain reprogramming, and that our animalistic behaviours and identities may have actually reshaped neural pathways is very interesting and could possibly explain why we feel and connect to our ‘types the ways we do. If our brains are in fact, similarly stimulated and seem more animal than human would it make sense why we identify this way?

To understand this concept of the diagram in 2.1 the author described how a phantom map of the patients entire missing hand could be found in seemingly unrealated parts of the face, and that touching a specific area would create a phantom sensation in a specific finger. they returned to diagram 2.1 where these fngers were directly above the corresponding areas of the face! the books diagrams help a ton with visualising this idea, so again i suggest reading it urself! i would be curious to see others impressions, does this idea of the corellation of different body parts affect therianthropes at all? which areas stimulate our phantom limbs and how would we find that out?

If we take this into an emotional context, as I often find my experiences to be, is there an emotional area of the brain that, like smiling, seems more primative to recognise these stimulations, but links them in an inhuman manner. could we then use this to suggest why a certain emotion may trigger a certain phantom limb or response. I often find vary levels of animality and phantom limbs in shifts, even unconscious ones. Why is this? Why not feel all the phantoms at once? Possibly it relates to this: there are, or could be, as the author explained, several maps. as they found a second on the upper arm, above where the missing hand was, and likened it to the diagram too. heres a long quote to explain it:

there is a whole lot more i could explain and deduce here but- alas i have run out of time, i will continue to revisit this book over the near future and add more posts to this thread with my findings!


thank you for reading, and have a good timezone everyone! feel free to reply with your own thoughts and analysis

Well I guess I came to the conclusion that I was never 100% human, and that’s what feels right to me.
I don’t think my younger self realised that I was an animal, but I definitely showed it in different ways. Anything that wasn’t human I clung to. Anything that just involved animals fascinated me, and I felt a longing towards being different in this life.

But perhaps I don’t exactly know why I’m a therian. Maybe it’s just something we’re born with, like a different way of thinking.
Personally, I think as a therian I can help protect the beautiful nature around us, it’s apart of me and I feel extremely set to protect it.