the theory of attachment- my little idea
heyo! this is a theory i had related specifically to how my own therianthropy came about, it's not something i beleive to be the explanation for all therians. however i want to know if anyone else out there feels similar.
as a little kid i was obsessed with dragons. something about dragons just made sense, from the way they behaved and sounded to the way they moved their bodies. it just clicked. i liked to draw dragons and pretend to be a dragon and was a dragon for halloween many times. i used to get in trouble for refuseing to act like a human during school, under the beleif that if i pretended to be a dragon for long enough, people would just have to accept that i was one.
furthermore i liked to get creative with dragons. i played around with the features, takeing insparation from other animals both fictional and real. i liked animals in generall and while other kids in my grade where hooked on disney movies i just couldn't get enough nature documentarys.
as time went on my love for dragons never faded, but my days of acting like one came to an end. i knew my dream of being a dragon would never be realized because i was a human. that couldn't change.
later on however, i began to feel like i was missing some peice of myself. something big and important. i questioned many things, namely gender being one of them. it was easy for me to beleive i was some sort of xenogender, mistaking speceis dysphoria for gender dysphoria and such. i discovered the existance of therianthropy from digging around the xenogender area of the internet. at first i didn't think much of it. my reaction was nothing more than "you do you, it's not for me". mere background noise. but once i considered the possibility it was pretty straightforeword. of course i'd be a dragon. i was always a dragon. this is what i've always wanted was to be able to call myself one of them.
i'm still not sure of the specifics, but i know generally what type i'd be. from the beginning i knew i'd be small. parttially domesticated. no firebreath. as a kid i already knew a lot about how i'd be as a dragon. i think of myself as being like a collage of different features with dragon as the canvas. instead of having lots of different theriotypes, i have borrowed things from lots of different creatures and compiled them into one single animal.
basically, i belive i was so attached to the idea of dragons that i became one. hence the title of this post.
thoughts? has anyone else had an experience something like this?
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