RE: What Makes You Believe /You/ Are Therian?
I agree with OP about the complexity of identity. For me there's a lot of complexity with this question, as I'm a firm believer that every facet of one's identity is influenced by multiple of both outer and inner factors, ranging from one's upbringing and their stage of life to mental illness and other identity features. My identity as a fox has equal chance of being independent of anything else and a certainty no matter what just as much as it has a chance of being caused by my childhood pets, the media I grew up with and their portrayals of the species, or even the fact that foxes were the first uncommon wild animal I saw in person. The general being a therian is the same way for me, where it's hard to pin down one specific thing that I could point to as a cause or influence.
One big factor I often think of, though, is my autism and anxiety combo. Foxes are small/medium predators that are extremely flighty and skittish, as I am. My behaviors, my mannerisms, they all would be completely normal were I in the body of a fox or some other similar species. Often times, people only need a reminder of a nudge to connect the dots and associate me with foxes. My own family and mate have made connections where I hadn't yet, such as my body language and vocalizations I make when I'm not masking around them. Things that are instinctual and normal to me give others a specific impression in such a way that they think of an animal like the kind I secretly identify as before they think of my known mental conditions.
Of course, I say this with the knowledge it looks like I'm just being an autistic wildlife lover, but I also don't see everyone else like this identifying differently. I've met a number of other wildlifers in college, in online spaces, and in person, and it's rare for them to identify or even see themselves as another species. In these groups, I've only met a handful of furries, which makes me think it's not even for a lack of the right words to describe it. I also have looked into autism and anxiety and the different ways it shows and affects those with it (to better learn about myself) and there's a number of things I do that don't fit. Whether that's therianthropy or more research needing to be done to better understand autistic individuals, I don't know, but I think all of this put together paints the picture of my autism and therianthropy overlapping, but being separate things.
All this to say that from a wholly practical standpoint, ignoring spiritual theories, I do think my therianthropy is in some way innate and a part of my core self and its own thing. If it isn't, then it's most likely an offshoot of my autism, even though a good chunk of it doesn't align with that theory.
Focusing on the spiritual side of things, I personally feel this innate therianthropy of mine is my soul being that of a fox's. How exactly a fox soul got into a human body, I doubt I'll ever know. I don't think it's anything to do with past lives, I personally don't have any memories and don't think I ever will, if I even have past lives at all. I also don't discern or feel any difference in the human and animal parts of my core self, if I even have both and am not simply a fox that knows how to be human, so I don't think it's me having both a human and animal soul either. My therianthropy is also just too long-term and innate to my core self to be a walk-in (and my earlier point about not feeling any kind of separation between them). I haven't really heard or thought of any possibilities to explain how I got this way spiritually other than my soul simply being an animal's.
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