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Thank you for writing this handy guide Shmi! As someone who is still trying to validate her theriotype on an ongoing basis, I appreciate the reminder of the process. I keep thinking I should look at other canines because wolf just fits too well, almost cliche, and plus, well, wolf therian; everyone doubts that theriotype from the beginning. I have meditated, had visions both with and without meditation, more dreams than I can shake a stick at, a near death experience, and past life remanents and so far damn near all of them, save for some of my dreams have been some form of black wolf.
I've seen my paws, seen my reflection in running water, felt my tail, ears, fur, muzzle, and have many canine mannerisms, reactions, and instincts, but yet I still question. All because I'm a wolf. It almost feels like because that is the case I have to state it as such, almost like building a defensible thesis for a master's program or something. The only different things I've had so far are my two avian dream shifts, to probably hundreds of wolf dreams shifts, and almost as many Valkyrie dreams shifts. Sometimes it feels like I have phantom wings, sometimes it doesn't, but none of that feels much like me so far. I don't have those past life recalls for any other theriotype, or any of the myrid other experiences, but yet it still frustrates me.
My personal theories on spirituality and therianthropy tell me that we all have to be polytherians, or rather since souls are energy that can neither be created or destroyed, we have to have had many many past lives as various things. For whatever reason, we only remember something like our last one, what was most intense, most significant, or intense, I don't know really. That part I haven't worked out yet. But I keep expecting something else to be under the surface of my soul, like a spiritual onion if you will. Over time we build up new layers as lifetimes are added. But so far, I cannot peel back beyond my life as a wolf and now a human.
Sorry if it seems like I'm venting, I'm just a bit frustrated with it is all. As much as I have learned in a short period of time, and all the positive progress I have made, there is still much I do not understand or that doesn't go the way I expect or desire it to. I suppose that is life.
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