RE: Does misanthropy drive therianthropy + my theory
The older I get, the more distant I become, f.ex. to let anyone enter my world. I don't trust people all that much. Throughout the years, they've been judging and telling me how I should live my life as though I can't make those decisions myself. Through observations they've made on me, I got the impression that they don't see me as quite a whole person, a person who has rights, desires, needs... At times, I feel like I'm not even trying anymore to make my opinion known. Who'll understand? Who will take me for full?
Something quite personal happened recently which proved that they don't have the slightest clue what's wrong with me. As far as I'm concerned, they are just gambling with my life and taking my support away without asking what my needs are nowadays. Right now, I just happen to suck it up and live with it anyway, but I'm well aware life could have been better if they'd just let things be the way they were. In this society, I'm reminded over and over again that I'm neurodiverse, need support, can't decide for myself how I can fill in my life to the best of my ability etc. etc. It makes me feel like I can't do anything right, you know, like I'm being blamed for being disabled, that I'm faulted and flawed. It's suppression, really. It's discrimination. And if you look at how society marginalizes and discriminates smaller groups of individuals that don't fit their idea of just, I can't say that that comes much as a surprise there. If there was just a little sentiment of sympathy in their systems, they would have asked me for what I needed instead of GUESSING. I don't like smart-asses -excuse the language- who believe they know what's right for me without doing inquiries. Specifically when they go over financial support, I think it's very important that, if they want to do adjustments, they ask the parties involved what those parties actually need. I dislike slip of the finger work. This is just one of the couple of examples I've got that prove that they haven't got the slightest clue who or what they're working with. All my life, they have jeered at me, made fun of me and tried to put me on the sideline. Quite frankly, I'm done with that kind of treatment.
As to the question asked, I'm not quite misanthropic, but I have my moments where I loathe my humanity and want it to be gone. I can be very embarrassed when I hear the news and ask myself a lot if that's the species I really want to identify with, if I could. But nah, thank you very much.
EDIT: Sorry, I'm still mad over it. After all that's happened so far, that doesn't come as a surprise much.
(This post was last modified: 2025-10-12 16:09 by Lupus Ferox.)
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