Me and my reason for being non-human (mentally)

I have never felt human I any way thats from being a alterhuman and autistic. I am a atheist (altho I do not believe in past live those who have them are valid to me and infact, have past lives) so my therintropy 100% is from being autistic I am mentally a fox becuse of this.
I was born a red fox I gained the winged/antlers later always are forever but my other kin types are different I became a winged Vancouver coastal sea wolf when I was younger I know this because of a documentary I whatched when I was very young adout them and was always interested in them but me being a snow leopard came later about mid middle school I thing but I don't know why problem beinf seen by others as something less than human so I was just dehumanzed more. human are mean sometimes I wish I could just not talk to most of them like the ones who pull my tail or bark at me.
so that's my reason bye (comments are wanted I want to know what other beings think of this)